Lay Your Burdens Down

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I’m still struggling greatly with some very personal things. My sleep is suffering and my moods are too. I took a big swig of Cod Liver Oil this morning for some brain food and I went to pottery class. Like Amanda Rose says, it’s easier to stay out of the pit than to try and get out of it. So, I continue to cast my cares upon Jesus, for He cares for me. It’s a constant thing. Laying it down. I know that all the worrying in the world won’t change a thing….so I am trying to stay in constant prayer….because really that’s the only place that my strength comes from.

I’ve been super busy with gardening and yard work. Over the weekend I lifted by shovel…literally…. 1.5 tons! Now if that’s not testimony to my healing, I don’t know what is. BUT, I am truly exhausted from all of that heavy work. Honey finished the corral which I’ll show you another time, and hopefully we’ll bring our Jersey girls home by the first of May. I only got two new beds filled with topsoil and can’t even think of finishing the other two…..that’s at least another ton of dirt!

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Our little Ranger holds a half ton. And all the rain hasn’t helped.

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The price of pea gravel went up $20 more a ton! Come on folks, it’s just rock!

In The Garden Primer, Barbara Damrosch talked about how her dad used tree branches for his peas to climb on. Since, my Tender Warrior, Ben did a caveman workout one day, cutting down a tree. I had plenty of branches to pick from. And since I planted a gazillion peas, I knew that a netting wouldn’t allow me to get in between….so I’m trying the branch method. We’ll see.

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After what seemed like a flooding rain yesterday, I was able to shove the branches deeper into the soil….hopefully they will hold!

With all this rain and making an effort to keep my mind on things I enjoy, I started a new knitting project. I dyed the yarn this winter and I do love knitting cables. So here goes a try at this lovely cardigan from Shear Spirit.

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I’m using the pattern Cassandra Cardigan on page 49. It’s an intermediate v-neck cardigan with cables & ladders stitches 6″ or so around the bottom. I bought my yarn from Knit Picks and then dyed it myself.

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Once you get the hang of the pattern you can then relax. However, I guess I relaxed too early and had to fix a few ladders.

Face to Face

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Ok, I give up. I just can’t stay away from here. This is such an avenue of creativity for me and a place to journal my days.

NAIS, is very important BUT I’m not going to allow it to consume me. I can’t.

In all of this I am reminded………… JESUS IS LORD OF ALL!

We were hit with another snow storm. I guess the damage was 6-8 inches, high winds and VERY frigid temps. I shoveled for 2 hours. And I’m still sore.

And,

Honey’s beloved Uncle TG died yesterday. We are all sorrowful. He was a very wonderful vicarious man. His laughter was contagious! His love of family strong. We will miss him greatly. Now Honey’s mom (87) is the only remaining person in her family, except of course for her children, grandchildren and great grandchildren and grandpa. It’s hitting Honey and me. Now it’s our parents at the top and then it’s us.

BUT, in times like this, TG is the winner! He’s walking the streets of gold. No more pain from bone cancer. No more falls. It’s all of us remaining that yearn for our heavenly home with our Papa God and to bask in His glory. Oh what a day that will be to see Jesus face to face!

Welcome Home TG!

My 2008 Christmas Letter

From our Home To Yours, Merry Christmas!

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I decided to write my annual Christmas letter here on my blog since just about everything we do has gone electronic. So why not my Christmas letter. Besides that, I have so many new friends from near and far right here on the web.

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As we always start off saying, I can’t believe that Christmas is here again. Our family has seen big changes this year. Our children are taking some of those big kid first steps that will leave our lives here forever changed. But we embraced those changes, at first with tears and now with joy. “Hold on to everything with open hands!”

First we saw Becca accepted into the YWAM (youth with a mission) photography program in Germany. She was excited to spread her wings and fly off on her 24th birthday. After being in Germany for 4 months she is now preparing to go off to Africa where her team will use their photographic skills to document the extreme poverty in that part of the world. After returning to Germany in April they will publish their work in efforts to raise funds for those they ministered to. So, keep in touch with me here and I will of course let you know how you can contribute to this worthy cause if you feel led.

Becca and her friend Leah

Ben is at the community college where he’s just passing time. A dear friend of mine calls him a “rolling stone”. Ben has always and still does have a free spirit. He still has a passion for music and plays electric guitar for the worship team at his church. He still loves to serve the lowly and will be off to New Orleans again this winter break to help rebuild a strangers home that was destroyed by Katrina. His long term plans are always changing which is probably nothing new for a 20 yr old young man. And he is a man. He ventured off to hike the Appalachian Trail for 4 days alone this summer marking his 20th birthday. His health was iffy then but he conquered this giant. Only to do another hike with a friend covering 27 miles of mountainous terrain in 2 days! He is still battling Lyme Disease, but is improving with a stronger immune system. For the moment he’s “training” with thoughts of entering the Special Forces of the Marines OR joining the local Police Academy OR venturing to Alaska and living the wild life with the wildlife!!!! Gun in hand, living day to day! What a guy!!! That’s our Ben! He rolls in every once in a while to grab some food and clean clothes but is mostly on his own, working at the church and enjoying life!!!

Honey & I will celebrate our 27th anniversary this March!!! Wo how did that happen? God has done amazing things in our marriage and we are enjoying our time together in our empty nest! Not to say that this jump into an empty nest is easy after having my kids home with me forever! It’s getting easier to pass by their bedrooms and offer up a prayer for them without tears. The house does stay clean longer, but with Boomer and Lady it’s an endless battle with dog hair. Boomer has lovingly acquired the name Lazarus! Constantly keeping me caring for him. Lady is wackier than ever and now with our newest additions….5 chickens, she is on daily guard!

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Honey is still working on stuff that I can’t talk about…so I won’t. He’s busy around our little place trying to get the ground ready for a barn/shed to be delivered. We spent endless hours clearing our back 40 this summer. Tons of multiflora rose to be wacked out. A gazillion poison oak trees to kill. Hours of mowing. Home repairs. You know the routine. Now he’s enjoying his hibernation months sleeping and resting for the upcoming spring and summer. He is the love of my life and one woman shouldn’t be allowed to love this much!!!

Me, well I’m enjoying and rejoicing in my new found gloriously miraculous healing. It’s been almost a yr since I’ve had huge breakthroughs using herbs and food to heal my body from Chronic Lyme and 3 co-infections. My doctor has proclaimed me his “healthiest patient’!!! How cool is that!!! See miracles still happen!!! I’m a living testimony and I hope to give others hope to heal! I’m enjoying this Christmas like no other. I have energy and motivation that surpasses many years past. I also turned 50 in October!!! Dance on!!!!!

Becca and I launched my website, Butterflies & Bumble Bees; my labor of love for Dalit women in India. I’ve been studying herbalism for the past year and am developing some of my own remedies which includes my favorite Chai Tea that I learned to love in India. As well as preparing my own tinctures and lotions and salves that seem to be a hit with my sisters friends.

AND now I’m becoming a cowgirl!! We bought 2 Jersey heifers so we can have our own supply of raw milk, raw cheese, raw cream, raw butter……..Raw dairy has played a huge roll in my healing! Of course since we have to have calves to have milk, I’ll sell my calves to help pay for hay or we’ll put meat in the freezer! And who knows I just might throw in a sheep or two!!! I do love lamb and you know I love fiber!!!

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JOY is 2 months old. Isn’t she the cutest ever.

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Gerdy and I were introduced in a torrent of rain! She’s almost 2 yrs old.

Wait till you see my new pink Wellies that Honey is giving me for Christmas! Oh I’m going to hate to mess them up!

I’m already enjoying my Christmas Ladies Artec Carhartt coat.

I told Honey that now all I need for Christmas is a BIG FORD 350 with a red bow! He laughed HARD!!!

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Life here at Peaceful Acres is good. We worship a glorious God and His Son Jesus. We pray that you will find the peace that only He can give, because he is The Lord of Peace; Jehovah Shalom.

The Rose Of Bethlehem

This song by Selah is so beautiful. I hope that during all the hustle and bustle you can slow down to remember the sacrifice that was given for all mankind.

From the cradle

to the cross

Photo Credit linked to Flickr.com

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“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings. In all your ways acknowledge HIM and HE will make your paths straight.”

“The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy. But I have come to give you life. Life abundantly.”

Jesus~John 10:10

My doc just called. Sob, sob. 😦

He told me that he couldn’t believe my labs. In fact he looked at my name and address four times to make sure they matched. He told me not to worry. He said, that he’s running them again, because they just don’t seem right. Not for who I am today….mostly energetic, alive, and seeming well.

Ok here’s the deal.

I’m severely anemic….I mean severely if it’s right.

Normal is 40 and I’m 27 and they do blood transfusions at 20!!!

He’s not panicked. He’s running it again.

Also my liver enzymes are very elevated. And my bilirubin.

My CD 57 wasn’t as high as I’d like. It’s 80. I was reading that 60-360 is normal—quite a spread!

My doc said, it was good. We don’t know what I started at but it must have been pretty dang low.

So, all in all he told me to sit tight and we are running the labs again.

This time he’s also going to check me for Wilson’s Disease which COULD be causing all of this.

We’ll wait and see and keep pressing on toward the prize of the upward calling of Christ Jesus!

But please say a prayer for me tonight.  I’m bummed.

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This is a picture of spirochetes attacking a human cell. The pathogenic bacteria that causes Lyme Disease. They are spiral and screw into everything; cells, organs, brain, bones. When they think you are trying to kill them they hide in a cyst form without a cell wall and wait. Sometimes they wait for 10 years. But they wait to attack again. They are a stealth bacteria. They have many friends that they like to play with. We call them co-infections. Other diseases that were carried by the infected tick. Most of them are not stealth like Borrelia burgdorferi.

I saw my doc on Tuesday and he’s so pleased with my healing. He confirmed with a smile and a nod of the head that my conclusions to my healing are correct. Heal the gut and you can heal.

I went in for a nagging pain in the left side of my back and an area of my right foot. After he studied his acupuncture charts and we talked, he was still convicted that this pain is connected to my kidneys. Not that I have a kidney infection or urinary issue, but that the meridian is blocked for some reason. God only knows why. I mean it’s not like I’ve been through the battle of my life or anything!!!!!

He offered to give me a homeopathic injection into the meridians which would be similar to acupuncture, but it would be longer lasting. It would be an internal acupuncture per say. If I got relief quickly then we’d be able to pinpoint this problem. So, I agreed. He also gave me Reneel a homeopathic remedy for my kidneys. I believe I have had relief. I have to pay attention to it for another week or so and I’ll know. He has fun with me, since most of his patients want a western treatment plan. Not me. I’ve hated doctors until I met Dr S two years ago. He’s filled with compassion, he’s not big on running a gazillion tests, and he’s a believer in healing. He’s not afraid to step out of the box.

I requested a blood work-up since I haven’t had one in 3 years and since I’ll be 50 in a couple weeks. He agreed. He also ordered a CD57 test. A CD57 test will measure how my body is battling this infection called Lyme Disease. Lyme disease is the only disease that lowers CD57.   The lower the count the more the body is battling.  This is not a diagnostic test but is used as a marker for how well the body is fighting and winning!  LabCorp is the lab that came up with this method of testing. Way to go LabCorp! I am very excited. They drew 7 viles of blood this morning. I got very used to having lots of blood drawn when I was 13 and first became sick with this disease. Now I wait for good news!

As a believer and follower of Christ, I have relied upon my Saviour to lead me on this journey. I felt so strongly that my healing would come in Oct of 2008. This was back when I was the sickest and faced death so closely. I remember Honey and I were in a cabin at Lake Anna, VA and I said, “you know, I really believe I’ll be healed in three years.” Nothing else just that. I haven’t doubted for one day. Yes, it’s been a long and lonely journey, but I’ve kept my faith in tact. I’ve definitely had my days of questioning God, but He never abandoned me. In fact as I’ve asked he has answered! That’s what He promises. “Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened.”

This is what I’m waiting for. No more spirochetes screwing their way into my cells, my organs, my bones, my brain!

By His stripes I am healed!

Love On Somebody Today

Zeph.3:17 “God rejoices over you with singing!”

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Today I’m volunteering at The Baltimore Free Store.

(yes that’s it in the above photo-no glitz, no glam)

(photo credit: CrispSeptember)

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Jesus said, whatever we do for the least of these we do it unto Him.

If you missed my post on being the church vs. going to church you can read it here.

Yes it will be dirty, yes it will be hot. And a lot of stinky.

I’m not sure that sitting on a cushioned seat in the AC for an hour is what Jesus had in mind.

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Matthew 16:17
“Jesus came back, “God bless you, Simon, son of Jonah! You didn’t get that answer out of books or from teachers. My Father in heaven, God himself, let you in on this secret of who I really am. And now I’m going to tell you who you are, really are. You are Peter, a rock. This is the rock on which I will put together my church, a church so expansive with energy that not even the gates of hell will be able to keep it out.”

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Wo, so expansive with energy! The amazing thing is that Peter was the disciple with foot in mouth syndrome. I relate so well to Peter. He and I are cut out of the same bolt of cloth. Out of all the disciples it’s Peter that I look to for my life example of following Christ. Even unto death. Right now, it’s death to my flesh.

I’m not saying it’s wrong to go to church. But if all you do is go, sit, and leave then yes, there is something wrong with that. I want so much more. I want to be the hands and feet of Jesus.

I hope you’ll reconsider how you are showing the love of Jesus to those around you.

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Love in action….it’s something that I really learned from my kids. My adult kids are awesome! They are the ones who really taught me how to love on others. I think both of our kids would rather volunteer for the rest of their lives, but in our world it doesn’t pay the bills. Funny isn’t it.

Let me take this time, since my Becca is leaving for Germany to do something that she taught me called the “comfy chair”….so sit down my dear Becca and let me love on you.

You are love.

You are committed to others.

You are a leader.

You are a mothers greatest joy.

You are my best girl friend.

You are a daughter of the King.

You are strong.

You are dedicated to others.

You are gifted and talented.

You are faithful.

You are honest.

You are trustworthy.

You are beautiful, inside and out.

You are awesome.

You are energized.

You are pure.

You are my Becca Boo.

You are love.

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Go out and love on someone today. Tell them. Show them.